The house is quiet

Wayne came home on Friday. I was so excited to have Friday show up. How excited, well I showed up at the airport over an hour early. Yes, with a 13 month old I still showed up that early. I looked forward to seeing my husband. The man I planned on spending all of my life with. The only man that I dream of. The man that unknowingly puts the biggest pain in my heart. I kept texting where are you now. Soon I see him, I can't help but smile. He peered over the edge of the wall and made noises for the baby. I went around the wall so that we could finally meet. He bent down and took the baby from the stroller and picked him up. Once Braedon realized who he was and calmed down daddy and baby bonded again. It was so cute to see that babies face light up. He was so excited laughing and carrying on dadda dadda.

Finally my husband came over and gave me a hug. A small peck on the lips then arm in arm we went to the van. We drove to the hospital where he used to work and picked up a check. We then went and got Devyn from school. I stayed in the van with the baby. But, I could just imagine how excited she was getting that page... Devyn to the office for an early dismissal. She knew that her daddy was coming home.

Once we got home Wayne said that she ran up the ramp to him. I would have loved to have seen it.

My heart is broken, I cannot believe that he is going to work. I had plans for us. Maybe tomorrow we will be able have those plans stick.

Day 2. Oh, he has to work again. I cannot believe that he is home, but I won't see him.

Sunday, oh not again.. yes he is working again today. I have to say I have noticed that his eating habits have changed and he has lost some weight.

Monday go figure I have to work. We had a wonderful dinner too bad Mikel got stuck at work for 16 hours.

Tuesday he has to leave to go back to AZ. Well, we did have dinner together. I didn't get to have any real conversation with him or any personal time with him.

My heart is heavy and I'm not sure how he really feels. I don't want to move to AZ to have a room mate. I know he loves me, I'm just not sure if he is in love with me.

I can't imagine being with anyone else, but I do feel like I have been a single parent for a very long time.

I will have to post more tomorrow. We have a terrible storm with lightning.