18 Apr 07

I'm sitting here at 9:43pm. Poor baby is still cranky. He really misses his daddy. I'm not sure what I am going to dislike more, him missing his daddy or not missing his daddy. I'll just be glad to have our family together again.

Mikel and I went to get his tuxedo today. He looks really nice in it. As he says, he looks like a blonde 007. I will have to post pics of him once the jacket is done. Of course that was too short. I don't grow short kids. haha.

Mikel also got his hair cut. So now we just need some new shoes. His dress shoes just don't seem to go right with the tux. I may just rent him some shoes. He is so picky tho... urgh, I'll figure it out tomorrow. I hope so at least the prom is Friday.

We (me and the kids) went to Kings for dinner. I will have to remember not to go there again for dinner. They serve a great breakfast, but I just was not impressed at all with our meal. OMG I was in complete shock... Mike paid for our meal. My oldest son has never done that. I called my husband and he didn't believe me.

I bought some new shoes today, what a deal I got! LOVE these backless ones.

Uncle Larry called, he won't be able to rent the house. Boy, I had to laugh at this one. I didn't know how to tell him that there is no way I would rent to him. I would much rather Mikel stay here. Although, I think we will probably sell.

Not much going on here. Devyn is reading more and more. She is a lot like Mike and I.

Braedon is walking so much better. He is even walking over things.

My girlfriend's boyfriend (I call him her husband) lost his job today. I just can't believe how much she has gone through. She has such bad back problems and fighting for workmans comp, now this. I will have to keep her in my prays, like I already have been.

My mother is really bothering me. I wish that she would get over her past. She has no idea how she affects the entire family. She just goes on and on about things that happend 25 years ago or longer. She fights with my dad daily and has my brother's loser girlfriend living with them. All she does is gossip and tell lies. I am so tired of hearing about things that happened or rather how she believes things happened. My sister and I have been talking about "the secret" and how it might help her. She doesn't want to hear it. She wants to "talk" about it. I just don't think she understands that she doesn't talk. She rants and screams. She is hostal and nobody really likes her. She isn't a nice person and doesn't care about other peoples feelings. Her every day life must have some sort of drama. I am so sick of hearing crap about everyone. She isn't happy unless she is talking bad about someone. The only thing that seems to make her happy is if everyone is fighting. I just don't have the energy anymore for it. She hasn't even got Braedon anything for his 1 year birthday. That is what type of grandmother she is. My husband left for AZ and do you think she can call to see if we are ok, no. She is self absorbed on how my Uncle's ex-father-in-law "beat her up" 24 years ago. My goodness, sure he might have beat her up, but if you get into a fight and lose get the F**k over it. Don't put your nose where it doesn't belong.

I hope my kids will never feel like this about me. I hope that I will continue to put them first in my life.

I miss my husband so much. I can't wait to see him